I need a break
After the module meeting with the director today, i realized one thing: I am really tired… both mentally and emotionally.
I was so disappointed with my meeting just now, i wasn’t prepared to share my ideas and i was kinda distracted.
During the last semester, i was swamped with so many tasks to juggle and i “postponed” taking medical leave and even annual leave. And this coming semester, i am once again slapped with the same old responsibilities, perhaps worst. Some colleagues managed to do away with responsibilities beyond teaching once again. Sigh… why???
Is it because i’ve done so badly last semester that the boss decides to let me ‘practise’ more OR i’ve done so well that they kept entrusting me with the responsibilities? [I don’t think i’ve done very well actually. There were so much room for further improvements and i did not give my best yet.]
I am going for a long break in a week’s time. Oh boy, i really deserve that break. I want my old self back - the cheerful, witty girl. I really hope next semester will be better..
